Merry Christmas Judas

This is honestly the first year I wrapped presents since you’ve been gone. For any reason. I started wrapping jermahls box and as I finished I started to look around for yours, and realized it wasn’t there. It’s never going to be there. I’m so sorry, my love. I messed it all up. I hope you’re still alive. I hope you’re okay, and happy. I hope your Christmas was so wonderful. I miss you with every breath. Until my heart stops , it beats for you and Jermahl. Sometimes it aches so much from the loss of you, I wish it would stop. If there’s a God, maybe he will let us be together again one day.